You were always here

English lyrics

In this sleepless night In a country made of shadow Across the open plains Through every narrow road I move like a restless spirit Turning where the cold winds turn Searching every trace you left me For a sign that still might burn You took the calm out of my breathing Left me longing for your face Every step becomes a question Every silence holds your place I keep calling through the distance I keep walking through the blue Every road I thought would find you Only led me back to you Every day I wander door to door Hoping I may find your home But your light will not appear And still I feel you when I’m alone You are here I feel you in every breath Why can’t I see you When you’re closer than my chest? Like water waiting in my hands Still I’m dying of my thirst Why do I search the whole wide world When you have been here first? Here in every breath Here beneath the pain Closer than my heartbeat Closer than my vein Some things live so deep inside me That the noise becomes a sea I got lost among my visions Till I could not recognize me You were nearer than my own soul Still I circled far away Chasing stars across the darkness While you lived inside the day Why do I run? Why do I hide? Why do I cross a thousand miles To find what never left my side? I keep calling through the distance I keep falling through the blue Every road I thought would find you Only led me back to you Every day I wander door to door Hoping I may find your home But your light will not appear And still I feel you when I’m alone You are here I feel you in every breath Why can’t I see you When you’re closer than my chest? Like water waiting in my hands Still I’m dying of my thirst Why do I search the whole wide world When you have been here first? Some things stand so close to us That we stop seeing them Like light Like love And only when we lose their warmth Do we understand What they were And what we had Ah-ah Ah-ah I was looking past the light Ah-ah Ah-ah While the light was holding me In this darkness You are sunlight At the height of all my loneliness You are by my side Closer than the vein within me Closer than the name I hide Why do I keep searching for you? Where could I go? You are here You are here In the silence You are speaking In the breaking of my heart You are breathing I crossed every empty country I survived each longest night Only to discover I was standing in your light Every day I wandered door to door Hoping I would find your home Now I know your home was in me Even when I felt alone You are here I feel you in every breath Now I finally see you Closer than my chest Like water waiting in my hands You were mercy in my thirst I searched the edges of the world But you were here from first You are here In every rise and every fall In every face In every moment You were never gone at all Maybe I will search a lifetime Just to learn this truth again You are present in each second In each loss and every gain And I’m grateful for the feeling For the words you gave to me O soul of mine O hidden light You are closer than my vein So you are here You have always been here Here Always here