Still Within

English lyrics

[Intro] They know my face before they know my name A quiet room, a loaded frame I came with nothing dressed in gray But I am still here anyway [Verse 1] I wore the weight beneath a simple shirt Kept every answer underneath the hurt The mirror asked me who I came to be I said, the one who won’t abandon me I learned to stand while my hands still shook To face the truth without a second look Every hard day left a mark, not a chain Every lost hour taught me how to remain [Pre-Chorus] If I’m angry, let it tell the truth If I’m breaking, let it make me new I won’t dress this heart in borrowed gold I’ll be honest, even when I’m cold [Chorus] I’m Ruholamin, remember the sound The one who fell and stayed earthbound I give a bitter yes to another fight With a bruised-up soul and a burning light Point your finger, I have faced that hand Say I’m finished, watch me rise and stand I don’t need your blessing to begin I am still alive, I am still within [Verse 2] There were days I could not trust my voice Every road looked like a punished choice I counted losses like a rosary Then found one stubborn breath inside of me I called out every lie I used to keep The promises that buried me too deep I turned the noose of doubt into a thread And pulled a door wide open in my head [Pre-Chorus] Let the hard years testify for me Let the silence show what I can be I have carried what I couldn’t name Now I’m walking through it without shame [Chorus] I’m Ruholamin, remember the sound The one who fell and stayed earthbound I give a bitter yes to another fight With a bruised-up soul and a burning light Point your finger, I have faced that hand Say I’m finished, watch me rise and stand I don’t need your blessing to begin I am still alive, I am still within [Bridge] No more hiding in the version they designed No more begging for permission to be mine If my heart is loud, then let the whole world hear I have carried every wound to get me here This is not a clean victory This is blood and breath and memory This is every time I chose to stay This is me refusing to decay [Breakdown] Thumbs down to the voice that says surrender Thumbs down to the hand that makes me smaller Thumbs up through the teeth of every failure I am more than what I lost forever [Final Chorus] I’m Ruholamin, remember the sound The one who fell and shook the ground I give a fearless yes to another fight With a wide-open soul and a burning light Point your finger, I will meet your eyes Call me broken, hear the answer rise I don’t need your blessing to begin I am still alive, I am still within [Outro] If you hear me, know I crossed the flame If you feel this, know I kept my name No polished mask, no borrowed skin Ruholamin—let the real life in I am still here I am still here I am still within